Initially, writing this I questioned if making a blog was necessary, but I think it is important that anyone who is interested understands that I am mentally, spiritually, and emotionally doing great. The past few days I have received several phone calls, voicemails, emails, and text messages from a lot of people and I just want to stress how thankful I am to be surrounded by such amazing people. What I found interesting about any love or support I received from anyone was the amount of sympathy and regret some people had for me. I think people are taking this harder than I am, but I just look at how much I grew my last surgery and I am ready to attack the task at hand. A lot of people feel sorry for me and honestly, I did the same when it first happened. I gave myself all of Sunday to get out all my tears, frustration, and anger. I asked myself the typical, "Why me?" questions, and at a point I wondered if I could do this again. I knew I was going to have to fight this obstacle in front of me, but to an extent I have been fighting my whole life. I know how far I've come and refuse to give up now, especially when I know I still have so much to look forward to!
I know this may sound a little weird in a way I am kind of excited because I thought I had already been through enough in my life and I guess God is saying I have so much more to learn. I already know I am going to struggle and have my days, but I am going to see if I can decrease those days more than I did my last ACL surgery. I have cried my tears, got out all my frustration and now it's time to move forward. I am focusing on getting my body back and helping my team get another ACC championship. I may not be on the court, but I sure will be on the bench acting a complete fool.
I appreciate all the love and support from my family, friends, and Terp Nation. I am redshirting my sophomore year, but I will be back next year ready to go. If you think this team is a point guard short, you are sadly mistaken. What makes this team so special is our reaction to adversity and I can't imagine being surrounded by a better group of women. You can go ahead and doubt this team if you want, but I guarantee you will regret it. We have been getting it done all summer, preseason, and I am too excited to see them get it done this season. Regardless of who is on the court, we are going to compete and in my opinion with our relentless work ethic, positions on the floor don't matter.
I wrote this to show everyone that I really am in a good
place. I know it's a lot to take in, but my grandma has always taught me not to
hang my head. I know what is in front of me and now I just have to have enough
fight and will power to get it done. I call this chapter in my life, "Courage!"